Last summer hosted a series of awakenings and initiated a series of transitions that I am still navigating and making my own this summer. I practiced single parenting while Little N's dad worked graveyard shift. We called the end of our marriage. I found friendship, support, and resonance where I didn't expect it. I found independence and strength I didn't know I had.
But the year has also rendered new insights, new sources of resilience and good health, new opportunities to be myself. I've learned that I can work and mother at the same time. I have developed a renewed, special relationship with Little N. I've invested in the Beloved Therapist and Kind Naturopaths with good results in my health, sanity, and choices. I've been invited to share my concerns with friends and been met with love and support. I drive regularly now, I don't love it, but I'm grateful to be able to do it to connect with friends.
I'm optimistic that each year further from June 2013 will reveal me to be more independent, competent, and committed. Each new challenge expanding what I'm capable of: single mothering, co-parenting, working, cultivating dreams, restoring my health, connecting with family, friends, and community. The fear and newness of divorce will be replaced with familiarity and routines. And as new challenges present themselves, I'll be able to call on the strength and the adaptability of this year to help me navigate them as well.