now

I haven't been writing here in a regular way for ages.  Real life occupies my mind, time, and energy so much.  Here's what I'm doing now:

• dating a kind and thoughtful man, who is similar to me in a lot of good ways, and different from me in interesting and enriching ways.
• raising Little N on my own, since his dad moved to Las Vegas last month. Wow! this is challenging. I'm never doing enough. I hope Little N feels my love enough.
• working as an executive assistant at a local non-profit. it's dull, routine, mundane work that I don't love, but I do appreciate the stability of the job... and the consistent paycheck.
• struggling, against the tide of my habits, to improve my health and reinvigorate my body. this is good work.  and it's work!
• dreaming of my vocation. I want to work with women in the area of spirituality.  in particular, I want to lead retreats, starting with the motif of the Madwoman in the Attic.
• daydreaming of home ownership and homelife with the man I'm dating and Little N.