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I've been away from this space for well over a year. It's been a full and challenging time. So much learning.

Learning the people of a new job. Learning to establish and hold healthy boundaries. Learning a new, much heavier, body. To love it. To take good care of it. To patiently change it into a more physically fit and cherished vessel. Learning to co-parent with L. To tend Little N with him, my most precious person with the person I least want to share my life with. And there's more that won't fit into one tidy post. 

 Old memories are rising - both painful recollections and wise encouragements from my past. The memories point to how I got here. Intimating the sources of deeply held beliefs. Recalling me to nurturing habits I once held sacred and practiced regularly. If I resume those old good habits they could carry me into and beyond this new phase of learning. 

So I'm back in this space. Mostly comfortable in the container I crafted years ago. Because I'm still me. My essential Jenni-ness hasn't changed. And I want to bring old versions of me and the present me together in one record, one reflection, one place to house my growth.